A sudden insight from experience and not from thoughts

God! Today I would have been ready to throw my computer through the window at the end of our workday. Hahahaha… Wix isn’t at all as fluent and easy to use as I hoped it would be and now they changed the whole software for web design, so it was impossible to change my old website gradually. It is hard to start all over again from scratch! But now it starts to look great. Only there is much more work to be done before I’ll be able to launch it and share it.

So with this problem, a blessing came along…

This week my goal was completely renewing my website.
It has been for a year and half now that I have my website since I started to build my way towards entrepreneurship. Here and there over time I added and changed a couple of things, but I never really looked back to the pages I had written in the beginning.

This week was the first time I did… And I didn’t like it at all anymore. I could feel the doubt and unclarity in my introduction. My services were expressed in such a minimalistic way that it wouldn’t even motivate me to buy my own services or send an email for advice. This made me realize how much I have changed over the past year and a half. To really become clear on what I can do for people and how I would like to express myself to the world around me.

Now I understand why becoming an entrepreneur is hard work. It takes blood, sweat and tears to keep on going and believing in what you want to create! I can understand that many people stop before they get to the point where their business starts to flow and you feel comfortable with the way things are going.

I always wanted to continue with my work with plants. I’ve been apprenticing for 5 years now and already did tons of work on myself from years before. Ayahuasca came into my life 7 years ago… And it is not a magic pill or the one and only medicine that will cure all your problems and health issues. I learned through trial and error which gave me a ton of experiences in integrating and navigating these ways of healing that will rip your illusions into a million pieces.

Since my last dieta a couple of months ago, I got the final piece to complete my vision for my own growth and how to continue the road ahead. The search is over, but I’m just at the start of the new road that I see for myself. Shaolin kung fu was my missing link! For years I’ve been working on my energy and mindset, but the body wasn’t really happy with not being a full part of my process. Now after a year and a half, hours and hours of work behind a computer, I was feeling very weak. Not that this was my first time that I needed to make a physical come-back, but it was another deep hole that I needed to crawl out of.

Ever since I closed my dieta I started to implement the basics of qigong and kung fu with the knowledge that I still had from the past and with the additional guidance of Shifu SHi Heng Yi from the European Shaolin temple in Germany. At the point that I was thinking about joining his 12 month self mastery program I discovered a short documentary of the Shaolin temple in Yunnan and a fire within was lit. I sat with it, continuing with what I was already doing. Then after a couple of weeks I couldn’t deny it anymore. I was receiving daily emails from the temple in Yunnan. Which invigorated my mornings with Shaolin wisdom. Here was my opportunity to join a community connected to the origin and an official temple with programs that have been recognized by the international wushu federation. By becoming a disciple and seeing things through to the end of their online program I would be able to integrate this into my work and make a big difference in the work that I already cultivated with plants.

I’ve been grinding through the basic stances for weeks now, non stop. Even before really focusing on any complete forms like most of us know martial arts. From the past I remember that without a proper stance your form is just sh*t. (Excuse me for my language!) But it is, really!

So now that I’m really serious about  taking this in I want to do it well and prepare myself firmly before continuing the road ahead. Their course in basic stances is very powerful and at the same time it’s not complicated at all. But it is VERY hard!

Now I dedicated myself to do my exercises every day. Even on a Sunday, after hard working days where I feel tired, or emotionally out of balance. Where I would have chosen Netflix and big joint in the past, now I know to go for my exercises first. So now I come back to the beginning of my blog post. I was exhausted mentally and irritated with all the changes on the software of Wix. Man, I wanted to sit on my ass! Instead I had a nice meal with my lovely wife, we had a moment to chat and relax after our dinner and I went upstairs to do my exercises. Tired as hell, it took me only a few minutes to repeat my series of stances until I was trembling on my legs and they felt like they were on fire, no joke!

Now I’m writing this blog with a bunch of fresh energy and a clear mind with a big smile on my face. Even when we think we are tired from a desk job and spending time on any type of screens, which is all mental exhaustion, the body isn’t satisfied. This is an imbalance of energy like Shifu Shi Yanjun would say. Today is the first time I deeply experienced his advice and wisdom about Yin & Yang. Balance in everything you do. Even though I already did my exercises before on moments that I was tired or not so well in balance. Today I felt the fire that he mentions in our corresponding emails. A very simple advice from experience now is when feeling mentally drained and tired, emotionally exhausted, put your body at work with your focus on breathing and feeling your body. Sweat until your muscles are burning and you would be surprised how fast your energy is regenerating!

This is for me a whole new journey as well, but let's stay in touch. 

Because I’m just starting and with a fresh website coming up I want to share this new energy full-on with joy and happiness into guiding other people to restore harmony and to discover their own personal way towards their joy and happiness in life. To aid and give you tools so that you can develop your own path ahead, with your own power in your hands.

Warm regards and lots of love to all of you!
Enjoy the weekend and catch you guys on the flipside,

Nick

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